you and your Bullshit are pushing me towards an explosion.

I am pissed. I have been working on one paper for 4 days now and I am still not done. Thing is: after this one, I still have three papers and 2 presentations awaiting me, all of which I did not yet start, because time is simply lacking. I don't know where uni is asking me to get all my time from, because I am definitely lost for it. I cannot believe that I am going through this for another year (I considered quitting, but then what am I going to do?); I just love to self-harm, I guess. AAAAARRGGGHHH!!

Because I did not have any concentration anymore, so I decided to . I threw some lipstick on my face to mask the fact that I have not been wearing make-up for days (it's just not worth it if you're sweating/free/don't give a fuck) and make a mini-series of pictures with my iPhone to give face to the frustration. It's all Instagram, because it's easy and I don't have the time to be all mervelous and be a free photographer anymore.

Adding to this, I am listening Guardrail by Bayside now, which sums up my current thoughts and feelings of frustration perfectly, both lyrical and musically. 

Don't worry though. I'll feel better again tomorrow. I need to drink a whole crate of beer then. It's gonna be interesting. 

I got to get back to the death right now. Let's just end it all (the paper). 

X.

P.S. For all people who think this is still a fashion blog: I am wearing a vintage men's checkered shirt from Episode.

Phoenixicity.

Look who's back! Wow. It's been really long, so I'll easy you in with this post. Some items of H&M's Stop Aids Now line. I have never really understood the concept and I wonder how sincere it is, but I mean, the fashion is good! It's skulls and dias de los muertos, which is probably the most awesome holiday existing, and tribal, which I have not always liked, but since a year or so the simplistic, but beautiful graphics appeal to me a lot.

 

 

 I had a long and busy day today with a lot of traveling and organizing, so I'm pretty tired. Inbetween picking up sweaters for my running team from the printer and filling the parking meter at Prinsengracht, an editor for Elle Magazine asked me for my photograph to feature on Elle.nl for their Street Style section. I'm sure it's because I wore a hat. Everytime I have been photographed for a blog I have been wearing a hat; see for yourself. I could not find the blog of the first picture, so I photographed myself with the outfit. It was when I was out in Antwerp with Sophs. The second is from damstyle.blogspot.com and you have seen it before on this blog.

Tomorrow I'm going to Ghent, to look at a film study at the School of Arts I might want to do after University College. Future plans! I am really excited to progress; onto the next step! Too bad I have another year of uni to go..

Well.., that's it. I'll try to upload more in the coming weeks, but I cannot guarantee anything. If I do upload something, it'll not be like this post, I guess. More like before.

X.

ice hits the medicine Counter.

Times are busy. Here are some snapshots of the last weeks.

1. Dutch coke.
2. After IDFA.
3. Picking Maarten up from Schiphol.
4. For some reason part of my foot is purple now.
5. Went to church because it's free.
6. Read The Fucking Manual.
7. Candles.
8. Rare Dutch Judengstil.
9. Library times.
10. Robert.
11. Espresso.
12. Loads of texts.

Also, please vote for my pictures on the following pages:

http://www.vangoghmuseum.nl/snapshotcontest/detail/the-uncanny-at-flevopark

http://www.vangoghmuseum.nl/snapshotcontest/detail/somethings-wrong-with-your-zipper-buddy-at-ah-sarphatistraat

Go to the link and click the Facebook 'like' button please. Thank you!

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feel it Break.

I NEED TO STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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take you On a cruise.

Whenever I take a train to Leiden, which is quite often lately, I always pass station Schiphol, Holland's major airport. The particular station is quite busy, but also has a very long platform on which the travelers are definitely not equally devided. When people are unloaded and loaded at Schiphol station, the train slowly picks up pace to continue to drive to Leiden. When that happens, you pass the ends of the platforms, which are empty and lonesome.
Ever since the summer, this struck me and I have wanted to make a series of photographs of it, but never had the time to get out of the train to do it.

However, some days ago I picked up my childhood buddy Maarten from the airport (he went to Uganda for 10 weeks) and I had plenty of time to spare, so I walked to the end of the platform and finally took some pictures of the deserted platforms. &Here are the results for you!

Awesome, right?

X.